Waiting for Family Life

Hi! Yes, another day in the life of a homeschool mom. Moods go from one teenager to the next. When can they both love each other and accept the cards that have been dealt them? Today, was a day that the thought of "braces" triggered resentment in one teenager. I brought it up at breakfast and the mood was changed for the rest of the day. Moods - what are they? Today, they are sin. Tomorrow, they may be righteousness. Yesterday, who knows? They come from words - thoughts - lies - MOOD - words - thoughts - lies - MOOD...... What are we letting words tell us? What are we letting insane, out of control people tell us? They come in all forms - Christian, non-Christian, etc...... I look at the influences that are coming into my life and my childrens life and it is disturbing. Where ever they are they are influenced by words - thoughts - lies - MOOD....... I try to find examples - most days I can't find any......the sad thing about it is ....not even I am an example. I thought about the Christian people we are around . My children do not hear encouraging words. We want to cut each other down so people will laugh at US and so WE get the attention. It makes me sick and disgusted. We as Christians have gotten pulled into a rotten world and live by the same rules of relationship that guides the non-Christian community. I am so tired of fighting this battle at home. I am praying for an awakening of our family to understand about why we say what we say and why we think what we think and why we live how we live - out of community and out of fellowship. It is JUST not right. We don't live in community because someone might say something that is not encouraging and because we don't know how to encourage. It takes to much time and it is just not worth it. I am also tired of sitting on my "duff" and watching the world go by and not knowing what to do or say about the craziness infiltrating us all. Where is our filter that "guards or hearts and minds"? Do we fight or accept the words and thoughts as truth? I do not know how to change the hearts and minds of my family - to steer into a course different from others but I want to try to pray that the wind of change from God Almighty will capture us up in a huge blow and carry us into a path where we respect ourselves, others, and God more than anything else we do. My heart is panged every day as I hear the girls hurt each other and hurt me. We should know better. We should know the "truth and let it set us free". However, we seemed caught up in defending "dead man(flesh)" and that keeps us occupied and aware who are what we should really be defending - each other from the enemy - who is out to destroy. Well, I could go on for ever with "What We Believe About Ourselves and Others" but it would get tiresome and discouraging and God knows I want to float on a different course. Well, back to pleading with the captain to lead us into freedom. Signing off.